All lyrics copyright Susanna Carman 2008
Holy
In the dream, there we were
Walking side by side
Master of my universe
You with your smiling beaming and gold tooth gleaming
In the glow of your halo
Look at me, I am so
Awkward on my own
Following the chosen one
The love who stole away
With the only piece of home I’ve ever known
And now I’m feeling holy
And I’m feeling full of holes
All this wanting
To feel at home
This is it, save me from
The sorrowful falling rain
Floating past green riverbanks
Me just a star-crossed fool
Ready to throw your love away because
Only Love
They told me to forget
So I kept on searching for it
The words you whispered so softly while my heart was pounding in that dress you bought me
I don’t need any masters
To give my questions answers
I swim steady in you my truest, my deepest, my bluest of oceans
It’s only love that keeps me hanging on at all
It’s only love that keeps me coming back for more
I can’t understand it
Why I’d want to end it now
A heart that is always broken
Feels the truth when it’s spoken
There is nothing love can do when you’re falling and waiting for spite to come and catch you
I don’t claim this is easy
When the pain and the nightmare seize me
Comfort shimmers in the distance as the light in my heart burns through this resistance
It’s only love that keeps me hanging on at all
It’s only love that keeps me coming back for more
I can’t understand it
Why I’d want to end it now
My True Love
From home I run to follow my heart
In dreams the stars twinkle in and out of sight
In your eyes I see the clouds casting shadows on me
For the hills I must hurry to find my true love
The moonlit sky glows dimly tonight
Don’t weep for me there are things you do not know
I can hear the whistling wind blow a song through the trees
For the hills I must hurry to find my true love
This river flows so wild and free
Sweet water rushing all around me
In your arms I want to stay resting here while we dream
In the hills I will marry you marry you oh
Lucia
If there was another way I would have walked that path by now
The moon is out tonight
These words you will not say, they slip through my lips into your mouth
The moon is out tonight
She is calling hear her calling calling you
The less I depend on this the more it presents itself as enough
The moon is out tonight
Fearing the things I’d miss like babies in blankets wrapped in our love
The moon is out tonight
She is calling hear her calling calling you
Calling you, calling you, calling you…
Walls Fall Down
Flowers on the table dinner for three picture of the perfect family
Washing up the dishes sweeping the floor I promise to love you for evermore
I left the back door wide open and in the sink the dishes are broken
Picking up the paper breakfast in bed keeping it together in his head
Leaving for the office quarter to eight he’ll do it again the same as yesterday
It feels like we’ve barely spoken and in the tub the laundry is soaking
We let these walls fall down
Looking at my baby looking at me showing me the future I want to see
With flowers in the table and breakfast in bed we’ll never regret anything we’ve said
I try not to breath by holding in only love can stop me from choking
In the mirror I was putting on my make-up
To cover up the lines and the time it took to take us
Down a rocky road toward a break up
We were living in a dream and now it’s time to wake up
We let these walls fall down around our feet
But we can build them up again
Where
On the way they say he stopped breathing
In my mind thoughts kept on spinning without reason
Making deals with the devil to trade in my life for the life of a worthier soul
Here I am the world on my shoulders
They day I’m young but I’m feeling 60 years older
What I know no one should have to live through though it’s all this living’s about
I’m wondering around trying to figure it out
How to stay warm in the shadow of doubt
Where do we go when we go away from here
I could mend the hole in your coat
Using thread I saved from my own ragged wardrobe
I can tell you’re a man who’s been missing the warmth of the woman who held you inside
On the air the scent of her lingers
Over there the telephone begging you to ring her
I can hear on the radio Gillian singing about time the revelator
I’m wrapped in your arms but I’m thinking about
The love I once knew how it’s all over now
Where do we go when we go away from here
I try to distinguish the scar from the burn
Love me tonight and be loved in return
Begin Again
I’m watching the light filter down through the trees
Reminding me yet again I am living in the shadows like a thief
Been biding my time busy with these old dreams
Remorseful that here I am half way through I still don’t know what it all means
It’s gonna take more than the comfort of these friends
Even more then their love to help me begin again
I’m sitting at home surrounded by your things
Remembering the way you’d laugh the way you’d cry way the you’d move the way you’d sing
Still counting the days with nothing left to do
Suspended in that place between living on the edge and falling through
In this body I am feeling where I end and you begin
Every moment another chance for me to breath out and breath in
I’m lying in our bed drifting in and out of sleep
Holding you closer still swimming in a sea of loving memories
Light of Day
When you say you’ll take your leave, for the mountains or the sea
Let me tell you, we all believe in you
When you’re using up your fight, to distinguish wrong from right
Let me tell you, it ain’t worth fighting for
And when you bleed, you’d better thank your lucky stars
That you are still alive, to greet the light of day.
When your blue moon comes a calling, and your sky starts to fall in
Let me tell you, it’s happened here before
When there’s nothin’ no one can say, to chase your pain away
Let me tell you, I’ll be knockin’ on your door
And when you bleed, you’d better thank your luck stars
That you are still alive, to greet the light of day …
To watch a new sun rise
See the morning light
As if for the first time
And when you bleed, you’d better thank your lucky stars
That you are still alive, to greet to light of day.
So if you look into my eyes, and if you hold on to me tight
I will tell you, you can make it through
‘Cause I’m your mother and your friend, right until the end
Here to tell you, each day brings something new
And when you bleed, you’d better thank your lucky stars
That you are still alive, to greet the light of day.
Fly
These hips they sway
Full of life it lit me up when you looked my way
Am I enough?
Something here telling me I’ve got to give it up
I am gonna fly
I am gonna touch the stars above
You are gonna write down
All the lessons you’ve learned in another love
It’s time now so throw your lasso round the moon
I’ll be waiting right here for you
Plane touch me down
Waiting while the bags on this carousel go round
Flowers in hand
Welcome home
The babe who gave birth to my sweet man
Angel of mine
Kiss these lips and we’re leaving the cares of this earth behind
Goodbye
Looking at the waves as the wind blows my hair across your mouth
Staring at the stars while the moonbeam shines in your eyes
Could it be a dream or another memory of what was
If it’s time to go
Won’t you let me know
So I can say goodbye
Goodbye
Just another day all alone with my thoughts and my tears
Nothing left to say to all those friends who call and check in
Desperate to be sure that you knew how much I loved and adored you
If I close my eyes
And am still inside
Will I hear your voice
Will I hear your voice
If I let you go
Will your love still grow
Deep within my hear
Deep within my heart